Slow Motion Potion

Ever get that feeling that you're just in slow motion? That's where I am right now. I can't seem to get things rolling, no matter how much I try. I'm trying to stay positive though, knowing that seasons come and go.

I don't know, perhaps the reality of summer schedule in youth ministry is coming crashing down on me so quickly that I feel like I need to hold on the very lost drop of spring before it all goes...

I'm getting ready for youth group tonight. Looks like all the Middle School and High School kids will be together tonight. That kind of changes what we do and how we do it. But it's always kind of cool to see everybody together.

Easter weekend was pretty good. The Maundy Thursday and Tenebrae services were good and powerful. God's story really is the best one. How great to encourage people to enjoy it, live it and love others! Easter services were full and pretty good here too. Because of my ankle I couldn't do as much "mingling" as I would have liked, but God used the conversations I did have.

Must... Focus...

I'm struggling to find focus and stay focused. I don't know if it's lack of strength, stamina or just a longer recovery time than I ever imagined, but my butt gets tired fast and I have trouble staying focused for long. So if the blogs reflect this... well now you know.

I'm looking forward to our Maundy Thursday service (celebrates the Last Supper) and Tenebrae (service of shadows) coming up tomorrow and Friday. I've been making preparations and feel like it should all come together, although there are never guarantees. In my restlessness I've been trying to focus on what God is wanting me to hear in this... but I just feel drowsy a lot.

Rick and Janene brought dinner tonight - stuffed peppers - and it was great. Dayne and Whitney came over and helped with the kids. I didn't talk to them much, I was hiding in my slow motion and rather smelly state. I think they understand (they're probably glad I wasn't around much)!

Patience is hard

I'm starting to come out of my "funk" a bit and so I'm growing wrestless and therefore impatient and therefore annoying. My poor family. They have been so good through this whole thing. I just hope that it all is worth it in the end. The worst thing would be to go through surgery part 2 and find out it didn't really make a difference. Well, too late for that worrying at this point I suppose.

I'm looking forward to our services this week and am praying that God will use them to connect with people in incredible ways. If I can in any way bring someone to the realization that God wants the best life for them, and that he's willing to help them live it, then God's used me more than I could dream.

I totally don't get the oxicoten thing... Rush... celebrities... addicted to this drug? I hate it and can't wait for it to be gone. I can't really function that way. I guess they couldn't either, that's why they got in trouble, but I'm ready to think clearly and trust myself.

ZZZZZZZ

Sleepy, sleepy. Didn't sleep much last night... so I made up for it this morning, sleeping through Bud and George working on our basement, the kids "suprising" me with get-well cards and the general pain. Seem to be getting better though, although with these big boys of drugs it's hard to have much perspective.

Trying to regain strength for Thursday and Friday services, then another restful weekend. Hopefully James will have my laptop and docking station hooked up by this week so that I can truly be mobile in working from home and wherever!!

Ouch!

I'm sitting on my couch right now recovering from surgery on Friday. It went well from what they tell me. They removed a nice sized bone chip from the back of my ankle. I am in much more pain than I anticipated. Way more than when i had the scope last year. They've got me loaded on drugs and so I'm about as worthless as can be. Can't do much, can't be trusted to have conversations or remember much, fade in and out of consciousness constantly...

I think I'm already driving my family crazy and so I am trying to be helpful and not a nuisance. Pray for my family during this time. Hope you all are having a good palm Sunday, remember the choice Christ made again and again to be obedient and live a better life! We can too with his help!

Getting Ready

Yesterday was a great day. Spent the morning with Russ, Judy and Noah talking together about what's happening and where we're headed.

The Crossing went well. I started the whole thing by making salsa!! It was pretty funny and the salsa was actually pretty good. But the truth is I just love being with that group of people. We just have a great time!

Today I'm preparing for surgery tomorrow and the massive period of time coming up where I'll have to be a home. I won't be able to drive for about 4 weeks and so I'll be driving my family nuts. Thankfully I have a new laptop to work from home with so I'll be able to get things done.